Happy to be Here

This is one of those mornings where I am just happy to be here. When times do get tough and it starts to feel like more is being thrown on me than I can handle I think about the Bible quote, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

What I think I am missing in that is all my troubles (financial) are from earthly things. If we were to ever actually do what Jesus suggests and give up all earthly things and focus on love, our love for our fellow humans, our love for creation, and our love for the day God gave us then our burdens would be light. We’d be unburdened by the troubles of the world because we would have left them in the past. If I were to rise from this chair after writing this and become some sort of wandering vagabond focused only on loving my fellow humans then my worries would be a lot less.

But would that really be showing love. Rising from this chair and abandoning my wife, children, and the rest of my family. When my father passed away I was given a duty. Both officially by the court and unofficially by tradition to be the head of my family. Now this duty didn’t come with a cool pepper necklace like I would like it to.

However it did come with a lot of responsibility. I am responsible for an entire extra households finances and it is burning my brain apart trying to manage it and trying to correct what is looking like years of mismanagement. It could only be one year, but this must be what it feels like when a new owner comes in and takes over a sports team that was mismanaged into oblivion. Imagine having to own the White Sox or Rockies right now and turn those franchises around.

Right now I think I’d feel a lot better if I did have a cool pepper necklace to wear around whenever I had to take care of family business. Everything would still be falling apart around me but at least I’d have my pepper necklace.