Remember Who You Are

I recently decided that what my business needed was a no inventory store where we could recommend and have products shipped directly from the manufacturer to the clients. However this isn’t how what I was setting up worked. I’d still like to do this but perhaps a bit more in the old fashioned way. Instead what I got was a store full of overpriced goods shipping from a warehouse in China. This is how business is done but that doesn’t mean I want to be a part of it.

I realized that other day that my metaphor about anger applies to a lot of other things in life. Right now my life feels disjointed and in turmoil. I have no steady ground. So, I fight against the only opponent I have, myself, and in doing so I lose track of who I am, because the only way to defeat yourself is to become someone else, and why am I fighting myself to begin with.

We do so much because of the need of money that sometimes we lose vision of what really is important. What it is that I am doing wrong I still have no idea. Think about the Psalms and how many times that ancient David lamented that the Lord hid his face from him.

We live a life of seeking and a large part of that is not finding. In all our searching and struggling for a way forward we can end up more lost than where we began. Letting go is hard. Having faith in a universe that is more like a roaring ocean is impossible. There will be times when we are underwater, struggling to get back to the surface, swimming deeper into darkness instead of up towards the surface. In that moment if you let go you will float to the surface and you have to trust it happens before it is too late. Struggling gets you nowhere.

This online e-commerce thing isn’t me. At least how I wanted to do it. What I need to do is find pet products that are looking for online sales. Stuff locally made. I need to start at local farmers markets and do this the old fashioned way. Create partnerships with people, not with Tik Tok trends. It is like the song says, “To be yourself is all that you can do”