This year has been a year of distractions. Understandable distractions, but distractions none the less. In dealing with all my responsibilities I have neglected other responsibilities. Over the summer I somewhat corrected this but it still isn’t where it needs to be. The big issue is I have solved precisely zero problems and often wonder if I, myself, am not the biggest problem.
The first order of business has always been to correct the income gap that my mother has. I haven’t poured over or examined the spreadsheet in any detail since creating it, recognizing the income gap, and going oh shit. The biggest issue is the time things take. There aren’t quick solutions, and every day it feels like we’re running out of time.
Solutions aren’t going to fall from the sky. A magic bag of money isn’t going to appear on my doorstep and solve all these issues. This morning I questioned if I wouldn’t be better to stop being a part of my business and go get a job somewhere. Leave the business in my wife’s hands and go work somewhere. That would solve some issues, as long as I could get a job, but would create more.
Right now the child care is shared and if I were to add a job then I would have to give that some priority. Everything would be much easier if this income gap could be solved, but as it stands I do not know how to solve it. I can stare at it until I am on the verge of losing my mind, but that doesn’t solve it.
What I need to do is focus on the next step, and that is completing this 1031 exchange on Maryland Ave. I don’t expect a miracle and don’t foresee it clearing the gap, but it does get us closer, and that is all we can do right now. Get a little bit closer. Then it might be time for a tough conversation, because we’re going to need more money to make up that gap.
When my father passed away he took a good portion of both the income and expenses with him, but he left behind the biggest expenses and took the largest income. It is a tough situation to deal with and I wish the rest of the world would get on my timeline so I could solve these issues at the pace I would like.
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