Every Solution Leads to Problems

Last night I had a bit of a shock before going to bed. A few financial documents came across my e-mail and one of them was notification of a very large surprise bill. As the night wore on the solution came to me if it comes to pass, but when I woke up this morning and looked at the requested documents the big danger wasn’t there.

That then caused me to stress about all the other solutions I have sought to immediate problems. All of them have taken longer than I thought and all of them had hidden cost. This entire year feels like a big mistake. Like I have worked hard to get us out of danger but only put us in more, and maybe that is the nature of things. To improve your position you have to move and when you move you open yourself up to danger.

Everything is stressful and the wrong sort of stress. I long ago came to the realization we live in a world that no longer values life because we do not value death. The loss of a loved one should come with a period of mourning, but all we got were bills.

Immediately after my father passed we were in a race against time to get the bank accounts reopened so we could pay a large insurance bill. Now tax bills are looming as December approaches. This year has been a year of bills. Of paying out money and watching bank accounts drain. It is stressful beyond belief because we should be in a position to make them grow, but I am powerless to stim this tide.

Every time I think I have a solution we suddenly have hidden costs. Everything has a price and I should know this, but standing still gets us nowhere. We have to move to go forward. It is impossible to improve our position by doing nothing and something had to be done. My mother needs income and the solutions are obvious and almost over.

In about a month all the pieces will be in place. We will be staring at the light at the end of the tunnel and it will be just about done. We just have to hold out for that time. We have the resources to make it, and hopefully all these plans work. Otherwise stress will be the least of my concerns.