I do not believe that life tests us. It only feels like a test because life is hard. Yesterday my family received news that my mother has excess liquid on the brain. I made the mistake of asking Dr. Google about it, and, I have to say, once again, his bedside manner is horrible.
i found articles from the Cleveland Clinic and the Mayo Clinic and they concurred that the three most common causes are a stroke, head injury, and infection. We can likely rule out a head injury. It could be a mini-stroke or something that caused it. The last option is infection, and that means meningitis which is bad, very, very bad. At first I thought oh good something treatable with drugs, but no. It isn’t good news.
All of this speculation is premature. She will have an appointment with a specialist and we will find the root cause, and then proceed from there.
However, this is looking like a year that began poorly is going to end poorly. We can’t control our timing in life. I spent the year working hard to prepare for a three to five year plan and timelines shift and change. Once we have answers we can adjust accordingly.
It is a lot to take in and a lot to process, and isn’t coming at a good time. Is there a good time for major illness? Does that time exist? Life is outside of our control. The message of every world religion is you are small and insignificant, and the biggest error you can make is thinking yourself important.
It is like our parents’ used to tell us, “The world doesn’t revolve around you.” Things just happen, and a lot of those things are bad.
Writing to process feels weird at times. Especially writing in a public manner. I don’t know how much readership I really have, or if I always feel 100% comfortable putting everything out there. It has been a rough year. In a multitude of ways.
The biggest problem is I can imagine much worse and I should stop. We should all hold onto what we have, because life is fleeting. It can slip away slowly or in an instant, but it always slips away.
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