I sometimes wonder what is going on with my brain. I wake up and instant start thinking of all the worst case scenarios for today and this week. There is a lot going on, and the more going on the more that can go wrong. I don’t even know what I am doing half the time. I expect everything to turn out horribly at every turn, and that nothing will go my way.
This type of thinking is both unhealthy and unproductive. When I say I don’t believe in mindset it is because my mindset is never good and sometimes, even I, manage to get good results.
I do, firmly believe, that if I approached each day with more of a positive attitude, believing things would go my way then my actions would be more geared in making it happen or I would be generally happier while going through the necessary actions.
It still feels like nothing good has happened for me in a very long time. It also feels like this is not the least bit true and I am bad at noticing the good things.
The kids being home for five straight days has introduced a level of chaos I was not ready for. I cannot express how chaotic everything was for those five days. It feels like we cleaned up and put in order rooms multiple times. Only to re-enter and find them worse than before.
My wife is stressed because I don’t help enough with cleaning but I am also banned from cleaning because my version of cleaning involves getting rid of stuff. Example, my kids have about 40 drink cups. They leave drink cups all over the house and get a new drink cup for every refill. My solution is to pair that down to six to nine cups. Two or three each. That way they are environmentally limited in the number of drink cups they can use. The hopeful outcome would this new scarcity drives them to present the desired behavior of reusing their drink cups more often.
I really would love to help clean up, but I’d really like to do it with a flame thrower. It is an ongoing discussion. My general philosophy is if you clean up as you go there will be less mess in the future, and my wife’s is pile stuff on every surface. It is a challenge that we may never overcome and not one big enough to cause any meaningful disagreements.
And in writing about needing more of a positive attitude I invented an entire new scenario that could go wrong this week. Some congratulations might be in order on that one.
David Huzzard Writes 