In my quest for stability there are a few things preventing that from ever happening and all of them are forces beyond my control. Last night I was finishing up with the improv class I have been taking and checked my phone to see what had happened during the last two hours. There were texts about employee issues with our company, a text from my sister about the AC unit at my mom’s house, and a text about my mother’s continuing health decline.
This past week I just spent too much money on Christmas, and I know that isn’t the stability I’m looking for. My thought was we will do this because we can and then nothing more, but all these little issues decided to rear their heads. I am 98% sure the AC unit is going to be a small fix. Something blew into it during the wind storm and is causing issues, but it is still an unplanned expense.
Issues with employees happen and they especially happen this time of year. Life is busier right now. That is what makes it so frustrating. It is another unplanned expense, but this time of time instead of money.
The problem with stability is life doesn’t happen according to our plans. My plan is to have a few months of no big expenses or issues. Life doesn’t care. Life exists to throw curve balls, and that is what life is doing right now.
I don’t need it. What I need is for life to chill out. I am done with the bad news and unexpected expenses. Life needs to go pick on someone else for awhile. I can think of lots of deserving candidates.
My plan is to get through these next two weeks and then have a nice steady period. A stable era in a life that has been anything but in 2025. I’d like to start 2026 on solid ground, and if I can’t I am going to do my best to be a steadying force in the lives of the people around me.
David Huzzard Writes 