The dark winter nights are hard enough. Now, add in the anniversary of my father’s passing, my mother’s declining health and need for a new level of care, and everything else going on and you have a recipe for maximum stress. Right now I feel too overloaded to feel overwhelmed.
A negative way to look at stability is spinning tires. Being stuck in the mud. It is different though. With stability there would be a foundation. I tried to concentrate in 2025 on building that foundation, but timing was against me. Timing is against me again. The foundation never got built and now we’re sinking in the mud.
Too often I anticipate rather than reacting. I look at future situations instead of the current one and run off to build where I shouldn’t, and too late find out I was never standing on firm ground. This is what needs to change in 2026. This is the path forward.
Except now I feel lost in the wilderness. Trapped once again by circumstances beyond my control. My mother’s health has reached a point where her current situation needs to change. That means either a nursing home or some sort of home care.
My mother would prefer homecare and if that is the route we go then that’s the route we go and we figure out the money. There are multiple sources for it, but everyone is a bad idea. The issue will be figuring out which one is the best of the bad ideas.
My burden has not been light this past year, and I am weary. I long for the stability that I am trying to build and think too often about getting to the destination rather than focusing on the journey. Obstacles and challenges are part of life. So are opportunities. Yet I have seen for more obstacles than opportunities over the past year, and long for the day when that is reversed.
David Huzzard Writes 