Staying Focused

One of the worst parts of last year was losing focus. After my father passed away I was handed a great deal of responsibility and work. I focused on that. I let my business suffer and it wasn’t until that suffering had reached a certain point that I realized where my attention was needed.

2026 isn’t off to a great start. Having your mother in the hospital with breathing issues and internal bleeding would be a bad start to a year for anyone. It is tough. I don’t know another way to say it. It is terrible and I am currently filled with lots of complicated emotions.

As I said last year, losing their parents is an experience everyone goes through, but that no one is ready for. It is a complicated time and as the inevitable drags on it becomes worse and worse and threatens to be more and more of a distraction.

At this point my entire year is turning from stability to uncertainty, but we can be stable in uncertain times. In fact it is the best time to be stable. Whenever we are presented with a problem or challenge in life the first thing we need to do is step back and observe. Think of it from a higher level.

Having lived the experience of last year and seeing my mistakes first hand I am more prepared this time. The issue is we don’t know when anything is going to happen. Only that it will, and that is the hardest part. I don’t know what I am preparing for or how long I need to prepare. Only that we need to be ready and prepared.

This has been the slowest I have typed in awhile, but also the most personal I have gotten. I am watching the timer count down. Waiting for an end while writing about waiting for an end.