There is a struggle to this. Trying to find the positive when nothing is going right. I have the vision, the plan, and the goal. I am also certain I put that in the wrong order, but I can see it now. I can see where we are going and how we’re going to get there. The only issue is I need to focus on something else. All of that is too stressful, and yet I have to be in it.
I am starting to wonder what the combined stress of the NICU in 2019, COVID in 2020, and now all of this in 2024 on has done to my life expectancy. This is a lot of combined stress in this current decade of my life. I think it would be a lot better if I had a partner willing to work with me to realize this vision. To understand that what I am doing both protects the present and sets-up the future.
There is no present gain to reallocation of assets. It does protect the current asset but it does not lead to immediate gain. The gain comes later, and maybe I need to take my own advice. I said earlier this year I was going to be more generous and if it was my money I would be, but it isn’t, and the obligation stack is exhausting.
This is where I am. An entry where I spent more time staring into space than typing, because my brain is fried
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