It is strange how this journal progressed. I started it to express gratitude and most of the time I write more about what is bothering me. Looking at the bright side of life is better than trying to untie knots that can’t be untied. Yesterday did give me a lot to be grateful for and one glaring example of what bothers me right now.
Let’s focus on the good part, and the good part was very good. It also happened to immediately proceed the bad part, and I don’t want to touch on it even though a conversation on the way to Lowe’s showed me why the bad part exists.
The good part of the day was going with the family to Lowe’s to take part in another one of their crafting days. These have really become a highlight of our time together and give us great stuff to do, and they set up the crafting area right next to the kitchen displays so it give me something to dream on when the kids don’t need my help.
Yesterday’s craft was making a train. This is all part of a holiday train set that I think will be quite neat once all put together. It was a little more difficult than the last couple crafts we did and I spend most of the time helping my daughter. I tried to give her plenty to do but this train had some parts that were difficult for six year old coordination, and it even had one section where a vice grip would have been helpful.
It was a great time in lows, but then while leaving I mentioned to my wife that we could just get fried chicken tomorrow when we went to my mother’s for her birthday, and that is when I learned that the Santa-Paws event is today. She did tell me previously but it wasn’t when we were together and it was her sticking her head in the room and telling me while I was concentrating on something else.
My biggest frustration in life right now is my life doesn’t feel my own. Part of that is parenting. Someone has to watch the children. Yet it still feels uneven, and here I am not focusing on the gratitude again.
