It is strange to be awakes. It is stranger still to not be tired. I could stay up longer if I want but I do not want. I do not want to pay for it in the morning. I need to stay on schedule. For what I am unsure of, but I need to stay on schedule.
This is the first evening that playing Horizon Forbidden West has kept me up later than normal, and it wasn’t even the video game that kept me up. It sort of was. I played it for a bit after helping to get the kids into their room and half-way settled.
That isn’t why I am awake at this time though. I stopped playing about an hour ago and decided to watch a TV show. This shouldn’t be that difficult. They used to have TV shows I watched routinely that started at 10:00 PM and ran until 11:00. I would then go to sleep and have no issue getting up in the morning.
I can’t tell you why it is an issue now, but for some reason I think of 8:30 to 9:30 as a proper bedtime and still get up around 5:00 or 6:00. If I could get back to the 10:00 to 11:00 range at night that would give me much more time in my day. It would give me an extra hour and a half to do things like play video games or watch TV or read.
I think it is possible. It was before. I might even sleep better going to sleep later. I am uncertain all that I am saying but I don’t feel tired. I don’t think going to sleep will be a problem, and I am not sure who wants to read anything like this. This is a very bad post. I am sorry for making you read it.
I felt the need to get some writing done. I didn’t write yesterday and I wanted to write tonight. I doubt there is anyone out there that cares about what time I go to sleep or my nighttime schedule. The only thing I can say is that the house is quiet. There are no children screaming or pets prancing about. I could easily pick up a book or go back to playing a video game. There is nothing stopping me.
I am not used to the quiet. I am used to the sounds of children and pets and an active household. This is strange and it is even stranger to think I could do an activity and not have it be a choice. One day I came home and decided to eat lunch. Immediately afterwards I regretted it because the noise started up again and the quiet was gone. I felt I wasted it on lunch.
The nighttime is different. The night is where quiet lives. I could do whatever I want now, but I must stay on schedule.