Commitment

People with a sales background are very good at getting people on the rails. This is where I don’t consider myself a salesperson because I hate being on these rails. If someone calls me with just a question I will answer it. If I never hear from them again then I don’t worry about it. I find that better than making a person feel trapped.

For the business I should not feel trapped by reality. I still have the ability to do whatever I want. I just need to get to where I need to be. That is partly the issue because I don’t know where that is. That is the issue I keep having in life. I don’t know where I am supposed to be or what I should be doing.

That isn’t exactly right. In fact, it isn’t correct at all. I know what I should be doing and where I should be. It is why I have wanted to put up a Facebook post about Johna for the last few days. Johna, the unwilling prophet. When God calls him he runs away. That is the lesson. It is the human reaction to responsibility.

Compare that to Jesus in the garden when he asks that this cup pass from him. That is the human response. A prayer to be saved from responsibility. Then Jesus immediately accepts his duty and dies for all mankind. It is in some ways the same and different from Johna. Johna doesn’t escape his responsibility. He is brought to it in the belly of a whale.

These have been my thoughts for the last couple days. Thoughts about responsibility and family and my role in the family. It has become clearly defined and yet I haven’t stepped into it yet. I need to. I really should accept it and take the role, but I haven’t fully yet and as I come more and more to terms with it I am feeling more comfortable in it.

Now back to the business. That is the debate today. Where is my responsibility. Is it to stay on the rails and make it to this morning meeting or is it to kindly text the organizer, tell them my duties lie elsewhere and go to Gather to put pictures of pets online and work on a blog post or something.

It is the idea of competing commitments and which one is truly the responsibility for the company. Sticking to the commitment I already made or starting a new one. The real question is what is best for the bottom line.